June 6, 2016

TBN Co-Founder Jan Crouch Passed Away Suddenly Last Week On May 31, 2016. ❤😢

Janice Wendell Bethany "Jan" Crouch
(March 14, 1938 – May 31, 2016)
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I was truly shocked and heartbroken when I heard the news about Jan Crouch passing away this past week. I had no idea she was sick. My heart goes out to the Crouch family and the TBN family. I mourned for this sweet lady with a heart of gold. I too will greatly miss you and your beautiful spirit.

Below I've shared what I wrote when Paul Crouch, Sr. passed away. I explain why both Paul and Jan Crouch mean so much to me.
Paul Franklin Crouch, Sr.
(March 30, 1934 – November 30, 2013)
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It was Monday morning at 3:00am when I first learned that Paul Crouch passed away. I was getting ready for work and while watching TBN, they briefly flashed a Paul Crouch memoriam. I couldn't believe my eyes. This couldn't be true. I knew he was sick, but heard that he was recovering. I had to hustle to be at work by 5:30am. I worked 14 hour days on Monday and Tuesday. I took Wednesday off to rest. I needed to hear God's Word. I turned the channel to TBN and a pastor was honoring Paul Crouch and within seconds said Dr. Paul Crouch passed away on Saturday November 30th. I was floored and deeply saddened. Not only did he confirm that Paul Crouch passed away, but he went to be with the Lord on my 44th birthday. I will never forget this day.

My heart goes out to the Crouch family and all of their close TBN family of friends. I can't thank Paul and Jan Crouch enough for having the courage to follow the vision God put in their heart with complete trust in Him for all of the world to benefit from.

In early 2003, I was going through a lot of drastic changes and challenges in my life. I found myself crying out to God for help. I didn't feel comfortable going to a church. But wanted so much to hear from God. One late night in tears, God led me to the TBN channel and answered me through a message a pastor was giving. I began watching TBN regularly hungry to learn more. Just when my situation was turning around in August 2003, my cat and best friend of 13 years passed away. My heart was so broken, I cried myself to sleep every night and begged God to heal my broken heart. In September 2003 during my sleep I was literally touched by the hand of God. There I was crying out to God every night and God sent me Jesus (Yahshua) who instantly healed my broken heart with His presence. I woke up drenched in tears. I found out years later that Jesus said, "Anyone who has seen me, has seen the father." My spiritual transformational journey began that night. At that time, I was completing my senior year in college going full-time. As I look back, I know God supernaturally carried me that entire year of crazy schedules, school work, papers and exams. I hardly slept and had no social life. I finally graduated in September 2004 after 10 years of painstaking hard work. I heard a message by a pastor recently on TBN where he said, when the devil tells you "checkmate", God and all of heaven steps in front of you and says, "I don't think so." I can confirm this to be true. ♥

After I graduated, I continued to watch TBN regularly. I seriously needed to hear God's Word. My mom would come to visit on the weekends and I would be watching TBN. Within an hour of her being in my home, she would go ballistic and order me to change the channel. She couldn't stand listening to God's Word. I would tell her she was visiting my home. If she didn't like it, then she could leave. My mom would leave. Every time she would come over she would yell and scream and get really evil with me. At that point, I would just kick her out of my home. I never imposed what I was going through with her. I never told her what to believe. What I was experiencing was deeply personal. Here she was visiting my home and attacking me because she didn't like what I was watching... TBN. I stood my ground. It was my spiritual journey, not hers. God had touched me and began changing me from the inside out. I love my mom and didn't want to cut her out of my life. But knew I wasn't the one to change her. Only God could do that. So I prayed every night for her that God would touch her too.

I think it was about not until 2006 after my dearly beloved grandmother had passed away that my mom wanted to get to know God. She began to watch Joel Osteen on TBN on her own at her home. Like I said, I never imposed myself on her. I was doing my thing walking and talking with the Lord. Then out of the blue in 2010, she shocked me when she asked if I could buy tickets for us to go and see Joel Osteen in person at Dodger Stadium. I happily said yes of course. It was an exciting day for both of us. At the end of Joel Osteen's sermon he asked everyone in the audience who would like to give their life to the Lord to please stand up and say a prayer with him. I wasn't expecting anything. Suddenly my mom stood up and gave her life to the Lord that night. I cried so hard, thanked God and gave her a great big hug after she was done. We were both in tears. That was the best gift God could have given me. ♥

I shared my brief story with you to emphasize how important TBN has been to me. TBN is on 24/7 and is always there when I need a word from God. My home is my sanctuary and TBN is my virtual church.

Thank you Paul Crouch for providing an outlet for God to touch my heart and save my soul. I love you and I will deeply miss you. ♥
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